Sometimes, we have to make a decision very quickly. no time to think about it, or wonder how it will all turn out. We just do it. So when I realized that I could use the "castle" trick I'd been practicing to escape a grapple to jump into a grapple, and save Daydream from whatever Copper-guy had in mind, I just, well, did it.

And we've been so busy since that I've had very little time to absorb what it means. At first I thought the effect would wear off. But it hasn't. And then, surely, Nakatomi could offer some hope, some solution? No. My magical abilities have been scrubbed at the genetic level, even the illusions, which were my only real talent before solo.

So, wehre does this leave me?

Locked out of the house, where everything I own is. Now it's all in Cousin Dee's possession. I suppose this makes her the new "investment," though, which might be kind of a relief.

But -- no powers. I can still baffle a bad guy with bullfeathers, but that's not going to keep me from going splat inthe next fight.

I suppose I can answer the phone. And make coffee. We need a receptionist, right?

And I'm being courted. Yay. One group, I am pretty sure, is Hell itself, and one is maybe Lucifer? That one actually gave me a time limit... And the third, some sort of Chaos god. No, thanks.

It's depressing. Even after all the work I've -- we've -- done, I'm only being recruited by evil or chaos powers. Only the bad guys want me.

Maybe I can never make up for the bad things I've done. Maybe giving up the power is the only way now. I just know I can't work for any of them. Not if I want to end up on the right side of things.

Worst is the idea that the others will have to move on without me, because there is a new threat on the horizon and all of this isn't going to stop just because Kay Presto isn't part of it anymore.

I already miss being a hero.

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